Le sauvage (2020) Painting by Jyb Le Peintre

“Consciousness is the consequence of renouncing impulses” Sigmund Freud. It's stronger than me, it surprises me and exceeds me. The sudden urge tears me apart, I can't hold back. Invaded, overwhelmed, suffocated, suffocated by your powerful constraint, I am the plaything of my impulses. Irrepressible tendency, tenacious, of an intense violence, you infiltrate without warning me. You invade my whole being, install your poisonous poison, push me to perdition without a start of my petrified reason. You alone know how to set fire, my eyes are red with your burns, my smile gradually fades then outlines the outlines of the borders of hell. The foam of my death cravings appears at the corners of my lips. My senses are sharpened, I become bestial. Without restraint, I take action. The superego is nonexistent with me, I live the present moment intensely but without pleasure. This is how. Chased by my demons, tormented by an illusion, desire for love quickly converted into a feeling of hatred, instantaneous turnaround, without emotion, without contradictions, victim of you, my drive, poisonous poison.

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