Faith (2022) Рисунок - Daniel Atilano

In 2014, high school was over, and the pressure to choose a “real” career set in. I took a sabbatical year to reflect — though this reflection often boiled down to two questions: What am I good at? and What do others expect of me? The second question quickly took center stage. And so, like many, I aimed to pick a career that was not necessarily true to me, but respectable to others.

The virtual realm was expanding rapidly, and I felt the future lay either in finance or computer science. With finance already claimed by both my parents, I turned to computer science. But alongside this “real” choice, I remained drawn to a more fundamental question: what defines a real career in the first place? That curiosity led me to philosophy. I enrolled in two universities — one for coding, the other for thinking.

These two schools of thought were not just metaphorically but physically distant. In the mornings, I learned to match problems to algorithms. In the afternoons, I traced the historical pathways of thought itself, not to summarize them, but to extract the ideas that still shape Western consciousness.

By 2019, I could write working code and legible essays — living proof of Auguste Comte’s formula: to know is to foresee, in order to act. And yet, something in me felt hollow. This formula demanded detachment. It asked me to understand the world first before engaging with it — to exist only after long, methodical thought.

But my body had never asked for permission to exist. Though repressed throughout my studies, it had always spoken through drawing. With the support of new emotional connections in my life, that creative force reawakened. I began to sense a reversal: no longer knowing in order to act, but acting in order to know. Or put more simply, not I think therefore I am — but I am therefore I think.

In 2022, I graduated from computer science and left for Paris, officially to complete my philosophy degree. But the true motive was more intimate. I wanted to return — alone — to the places of my childhood, where I remembered being fully body, fully present. It was a personal pilgrimage, a treasure hunt for lost sensations and uncalculated expressions. I wasn’t looking for meaning in the abstract, but rather for re-embodiment — for a way to exist without guilt or the need for rational justification.

Now, in 2024, that journey continues. Drawing has become the method through which I stitch my thinking self back to my feeling self. Each piece is a knot, tying together intellect and intuition, mind and flesh. This search to unify the fragmented self — to act, foresee, and only then know — still shapes everything I create.

And so, I keep drawing.

• Национальность: МЕКСИКА
• Дата рождения : 1997
• Художественные домены: Работы профессиональных художников,
• Группы: Профессиональный художник Современные Мексиканские Художники