Ritualis cum Umbra Matris (2024) Картина - Mikhail Sol

This passage is a profound and intense exploration of a deeply internal struggle, likely
metaphorical, relating to the complex relationship with a maternal figure or an aspect of the self often referred to as the "Mother." It paints a vivid picture of psychological torment and ritualistic behavior that keeps the speaker tied to a cycle of violence and suppression.

The narrator describes feeling trapped within this cycle since birth, unable to escape from the repeated rituals of suppression and adoration of a seemingly lifeless altar. The imagery suggests a paradox of veneration and violence towards this mother figure, who embodies both torment and reverence.
Despite attempts to break free, the echoes of her voice haunt every thought of self
destruction, and her wrath and punishment feel omnipresent. The narrator experiences these emotions as physically and psychologically overwhelming, leading to feelings of suffocation, freezing unto death, and utter helplessness.

There is a desperate cry for relief from this constant pressure, a plea for respite from this overwhelming presence. Yet, there is also a profound fear of her wrath, and the narrator finds themselves in a perpetual state of defense, either lighting candles to cleanse the space in her name or carrying a knife for protection against her influence.
This narrative encapsulates the psychological struggle between wanting to rebel against this overpowering influence and the impossibility of completely escaping it. The "Ritual with the Mother's Shadow" symbolizes an ongoing battle within oneself, possibly reflecting themes of guilt, shame, anger, and the inability to reconcile with aspects of the past or one's identity.

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BlackMotherFemale NudeKnifeEsotericism